Ok its been another year since I posted.

"Ok its been another year since I posted.

It seems harder and harder to come back here.

So update:
I still work though its harder and harder to maintain my prior profession, so Im looking at alternatives.

Im being treated at the VA for PTSD and MDD.

Constant anger has become an issue and I dont even know who Im angry at. Well everyone actually but intellectually that seems unreasonable so...

It seeps from the pours of my skin and permeates the air about me so that everyting I see is red and all I hear distorted, enraging me.

Ive long grown weary of it yet I cannot excise it and nothing I do (or dont do more importantly) seems to diminish it. It haunts me always...

And the urge to escape.

Publicly the country is supportive of returned veterans, mostly while they are deployed. Being home is another experience entirely and is more lonely than being gone ever was.

Being home is like being invisible."
Chapter: War